Louise Thompson admits being on TV ‘traumatised’ her and she muted life with alcohol as she shows off London townhouse

Louise Thompson found fame as a reality star on the popular ITV show Made In Chelsea when she was just 21 years old. Viewers watched her highs and lows as she navigated the world of being surrounded by the likes of the heirs to the Quality Street and McVitie's empires, among many others. Now, 10 years after first appearing on the fan-favourite programme, Louise has revealed that she was actually traumatised by her experience.

Speaking exclusively to The OK! VIP Club, the 30 year old explains that she needed some space to understand who she was before jumping into anything with potential partners following her time on the show. "I didn't want to jump into anything straight off the back of being traumatised by being on TV," she says. "I just needed some time on my own to really figure out who I was and what I wanted."

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Speaking out about how unhappy she felt as a teenager all the way up until her early adulthood years, she continued: "I basically had always lived my life for other people. I'd always seen myself through how I thought other people saw me, perceived me. I was very, very self-conscious and I had very low self-esteem.

"It stems back from being probably in prep school. I was always such a 'yes' person. Even if I was in a conversation with a group of young girls and they'd be like, 'Oh my God, have you seen this movie?' Even if I hadn't seen the movie, I'd be like, 'Yeah, yeah, yeah! I've seen the movie.'

"I had no confidence. When I was younger I was popular, I had a good head on my shoulders, I was doing well at school, I was in sports teams. But deep down I just really lacked confidence.

"And then when I got to about 14, 15 I started drinking. I experimented with alcohol. I guess that was like a crutch for me. It became a problem."

While Louise, who recently revealed she wants two kids with her fiancé, says she's "on the other side of it now", the brunette beauty explains that she used to drink to gain a sense of confidence.

"I built a lot of relationships around alcohol," she continued. "So I was in some very unhealthy relationships with boyfriends. I became incredibly co-dependent, because all of my value was then placed on that relationship.

"I so desperately wanted to be loved but I didn't love myself.

"So then I would push the other person away because I would drink and then I'd behave in a terrible way. I'd push them to see how far I could go to see if they would still love me or whether they would leave me. I did that for about 10 years, because the last five years has been pretty good.

"It's just a constant kind of battle where I was trying to figure out who I was, but I wasn't getting anywhere because I was muting real life all the time with binge drinking, probably three times a week minimum. My whole life I was basically drunk or hungover and I couldn't ever evolve into someone who was going to have a decent standard of living. I was always making mistakes, always ending back at square one repeating bad habits."

She continues on to explain how living with a "clear head" allows people to make thought-through decisions, but without a clear head it's easy to end up down "the rabbit hole".

"Part of me feels like I'm only just starting to live now and I kind of feel like I'm 18!" she adds. "And that's in part down to being with someone that supports me and introduced me to a whole different life."

Her life since those days looks very different as she shares a stunning home with her soon-to-be-husband Ryan Libbey in London, which they use as the headquarters of their business, Live Like Louise.

Louise, who recently gave her blessing to Sam Thompson and Zara McDermott's romantic reunion, moved into her house six years ago when she left Edinburgh University and said that the home has “evolved so much since.”

She said: “For the first few years I lived surrounded by an amalgamation of my mum and dads old furniture that they didn’t want anymore.”

The pair have added their own touch to the space now, as Louise previously told OK! that they wanted their living room to be a “cosy space that allows us to relax in the evenings after work, but at the same time we occasionally use our living room as a space for meetings.”

The engaged couple were helped by stylists at Wayfair UK to give their office and living room a whole new look, with Louise describing their interior style as “traditional blended with a contemporary touch”.

The star added that she gets interior designing inspiration in different places as she said: “From Instagram and Pinterest, to traveling to different countries and staying in different homes/hostels/hotels/palaces.

"They all have influenced my taste in interior design and have inspired me immensely."

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