Billie Eilish Says 'Sometimes I Feel Trapped by This Persona I Have Created,' Talks Past Romances
That thought led to the creation of her much-talked-about self-written video in late May, which shows Eilish undressing layers of clothing until she is only wearing a bra. "That tour video was about all that. It is me saying: look, there is a body underneath these clothes and you don't get to see it. Isn't that a shame?" she tells the outlet in her interview. "But my body is mine and yours is yours. Our own bodies are kind of the only real things which are truly ours. I get to see it and get to show it when I want to."
As her career continues to skyrocket, Eilish says her love life has had less of a priority. "It is so weird, but I don't see it for myself. I know I will find someone eventually, but at the moment I can't visualize it," she explains. "I feel like I am a totally different person when I am with someone else. People just don’t do it for me. It's weird."
Looking back at her pre-fame days, the Grammy winner recalls longing for a romantic interest. "All I ever wanted was a boyfriend. Any time when it was rainy or cloudy, all I would wish is I was with some boy. That was my thing," she says.
"Whenever we were somewhere nice, a beach or a balcony with a sunset, I would never be able to enjoy the experience as I just used to wish I was with some boy. And I couldn’t be further away from that," Eilish shares. "I've had my heart broken, sure. People have done some terrible s— to me. The crazy s— I have gone through. I have never felt powerful in a relationship. I did once and, guess what, I took advantage of that person's kindness. I wasn't used to it. It's been months and I am not attracted to people anymore. I don't know what's going on… It's actually kind of dope."
And having children is further down her priority list. "I mean, I just don't want my kids to be a famous person's kids. I hate famous people's kids – they are so bratty!" she quip.
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