Ashley Cain in tears as he's 'crippled' with grief watching videos of late daughter Azaylia
TEARFUL Ashley Cain said he's feeling crippled with grief after watching videos of his late daughter Azaylia.
The bereaved dad has been doing his best to stay positive after Azaylia's death, running and cycling long distances to keep busy.
But in an emotional Instagram video he admitted there are times when he is consumed with grief.
He said: "Today's been a difficult day. As much as you see me out riding my bike and running and doing all this 'let's go champ…'
"At the minute I've been sitting in my living room with no TV on for the last hour, two hours. I've just been staring at the wall. I feel crippled. I keep seeing pictures and looking at videos and just crying.
"It affects ya, and it's hard and it's painful everyday, and some days it just stops you in your tracks so you can't think of anything else. You can't pick yourself up, and I feel today is one of those days for me."
The previous day Ashley continued to find solace in vivid orange sunsets which he sees as a sign from Azaylia.
The 30-year-old told fans that the beautiful skies are messages from his little girl, who is reassuring him that she is okay.
Ashley rode his bike to visit his daughter's grave while the sun was setting, and he said that he felt her presence with every single peddle.
He told Azaylia: "Thank you for always looking after your daddy."
Ashley and his partner Safiyya were left devastated when Azaylia passed away at eight months old following a brave battle with leukaemia.
They have been open in the comfort that they get from the sky ever since, with the couple regularly sharing their grief on social media.
Ashley admitted that it'd brought him "peace" after he and Safiyya spotted their daughter's face, angels, and even Azaylia's initial in the clouds after her death.
Last month, Ashley had to reassure fans that he was okay after concerning them when he said he was "haunted" by his little girl passing away in his arms.
He broke down in tears in an emotional video at Azaylia's grave, but later shared: "I know I got in my feelings a bit tonight, but I want everyone to know they don't need to worry about me… My daughter fought so hard for her life that I would never, ever give mine up.
"I'm dedicating the rest of my life to fighting, set up this charity to be sure that other families and children don't have to have it as hard as we did."
Ashley added that all he asked was for continued support from his online following as he vowed to always fight in Azaylia's name.
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